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Think My Thoughts
Part I. His Will, My Will
Righting Your Will
We’ll begin with a quote from the mishna in Pirkei Avos, a maamar that most of the people sitting here are familiar with: עֲשֵׂה רְצוֹנוֹ כִּרְצוֹנְךָ – Make His will like your will (2:4).
Now this statement is usually explained to mean that you should do what Hakadosh Baruch Hu desires you to do. ‘Make His will, your will’ in the sense of fulfilling the commandments of Hashem; if He wants you to fulfill the mitzvos, then that’s what you should do.
And yet, even though this is not a wrong explanation, it’s not enough. There’s more to that statement. Much more.
What does it mean עֲשֵׂה רְצוֹנוֹ כִּרְצוֹנְךָ? It means to make the will of Hakadosh Baruch Hu, whatever He’s thinking, whatever He wants, into your will. It’s not merely a matter of fulfilling what He commands – it’s a matter of thinking like Hakadosh Baruch Hu thinks. That’s what Hashem wants from us, to think along with Him; that our minds should follow the patterns of His mind kiv’yachol.
More Than Doing
Now, if that’s so it means that this subject of עֲשֵׂה רְצוֹנוֹ כִּרְצוֹנְךָ requires us to study not merely what we are expected to do. Of course we must know what to do. The Torah has all kinds of requirements; we must know the halacha, what’s commanded to do and what’s forbidden to do. The truth is that a large part of avodas Hashem is studying what you’re expected to do and what you’re expected to avoid. Very many people don’t know that even their l’maisah living, their acts, are being done many times incorrectly and therefore to learn halachos is very important.
But besides that, included in that obligation, there’s also a great mass of information that Hakadosh Baruch Hu expects us to learn; patterns of thinking that will make His attitudes and ideals our own attitudes and ideals.
Is Torah Mitzvos?
That’s why it says לְפִיכָךְ הִרְבָּה לָהֶם תּוֹרָה וּמִצְוֹת, that Hashem gave us the gift of two things: Torah and mitzvos (Makkos 23b). Now, mitzvos we know are commands – it means commands, what you must do and what you shouldn’t do. That’s mitzvos. But what is Torah? Isn’t that included?
The answer is it is, but it’s a separate branch of doing. It’s the doing of the mind, the activating the thoughts to think along a certain pattern. The word ‘torah’ means teaching; in English we’d call it ‘ideology’. It’s ideologia, the chochma of concepts, of ideas. But not any ideas. ‘Torah’ with a capital T means the Thoughts of Hakadosh Baruch Hu. To pattern your thoughts after His; that’s what’s intended here. And therefore it’s an entirely different area of achievement independent of anything that you would do. It’s a matter of succeeding in learning how to think.
Now, if a person is loyal to what the Torah told him to be loyal to, he’s fulfilling the Torah. If a person does what he’s supposed to do, he’s a fine man. He’s a tzaddik, no question about it. We love him. Anybody who keeps the Torah, he’s a tzaddik and you are required to love him, no question about that.
Plowing New Fields
Nevertheless it’s only a part of the story. These frum Jews who never gained an intellectual attitude, they’re missing an important part of what it means to be a Torah Jew. It’s wonderful to be frum l’maisa. I’m not belittling it chas v’shalom but it’s only when a person learns to think with the Torah attitudes – not only his body keeps the Torah but his neshama, his machshava, his intelligence thinks like the Torah – only then is he a Torah Jew.
Now that’s an entirely new field. It’s as old as Matan Torah but the idea is new to most people. But new or not it’s a field of endeavor we must learn to undertake because that is what Hakadosh Baruch Hu meant when he gave us the Torah. One of the most important aspects of Kabolas HaTorah is this: we should think along with Hakadosh Baruch Hu.
The Hidden Commandment
Why do I say it’s most important? Because it’s the first commandment we heard at Har Sinai. When we look at the Aseres Hadibros we see that the first of these commandments is אָנֹכִי ה’ אֱלֹקֶיךָ. Now that does not sound like a commandment to us. It’s a statement, that’s all. What’s the mitzvah there? If it’s a command, we don’t see any command here.
Now there are a number of peirushim but one of the most important ways of understanding is what the Rambam explains: You’re obligated leida uleha’amin, to know and believe (Hilchos Yesodei HaTorah 1:1, Sefer Hamitzvos 1). That’s the pshat: to know and to believe אָנֹכִי ה’ אֱלֹקֶיךָ.
Now the question is, it seems to be an entirely superfluous command. After all, it was said to people who ate mann every day, people who saw ananei hakavod overhead all the time and at night the ananei eish. This command was said to people who were standing at Har Sinai and heard Hashem’s Voice speaking to them. It wasn’t necessary to tell them this mitzvah. For the yotzei Mitzrayim it was superfluous.
This mitzvah after all is not only for the future generations. It was also for the yotzei Mitzrayim who were standing there right now. And they’re looking, they’re hearing. Hashem is right here! So אָנֹכִי ה’ אֱלֹקֶיךָ means merely you should believe in Me? How could they not believe? A dead man maybe, but a live man it’s impossible not to believe. They heard His Voice speaking to them.
Secrets Revealed
And so we understand that the mitzvah includes more than that. Anochi means ‘you should get to know Me.’ Of course, on the lowest level it means emunah; it means saying, believing, אֲנִי מַאֲמִין בֶּאֱמוּנָה שְׁלֵמָה – “I know that there’s One Hashem.” But that’s only the bottom rung of the mitzvah.
To know Hashem means to know all about Him, to know what He thinks about everything. “I am Hashem your G-d” means, ‘You should know what My thoughts are and you should think according to the way I think.’ Anochi means ‘I am your model in how to think, in what to think.’ That’s how Hakadosh Baruch Hu wants us to fulfill this mitzvah. It’s a commandment to think.
Now the truth is it’s impossible to know what Hashem is thinking. Hashem’s ‘Intellect’ – if we could say such a word – is way way above the ability of our minds to grasp. כִּי לֹא מַחְשְׁבוֹתַי מַחְשְׁבוֹתֵיכֶם – Your thoughts are not like My thoughts, Hashem says (Yeshaya 55:8). It would be ridiculous for a basar v’dom to aspire to know the thoughts of Hakadosh Baruch Hu. Who are we to imagine that we could think His thoughts?
And yet we can! We can because what He wants us to know of His thinking, that’s what He wrote down in the Torah. The Torah, as far as we, basar v’dom, are concerned is Hashem’s thoughts. And you can despair about learning more about what He’s thinking than what you can get out of the Torah; you’ll never discover more about the Mind, kiv’yachol, of Hakadosh Baruch Hu than what He revealed in His Torah.
Talmud Torah Kineged Kulam
But it’s not only something interesting, something mysterious or mystical, that we can open up the Torah and see the thoughts of Hashem. אָנֹכִי ה’ אֱלֹקֶיךָ means that it’s an obligation: “I’m obligating you to study Me; to know Me by means of knowing My thoughts.’
Now, this principle that the Torah is the thoughts of Hashem, a look into His intellect, lends a new importance not only to internalizing all the great Torah ideals – we’ll speak soon about them; there are thousands and thousands of them – but to learning Torah in general. Because we’re seeing now that it’s not merely a mitzvah of learning Torah – it’s an opportunity to study a Sefer that is a treasury of the highest Thoughts available to man.
That’s why our Sages (Peah 1:1) say that תַּלְמוּד תּוֹרָה כְּנֶגֶד כֻּלָּם. ‘Learning Torah is equal to all the mitzvos’ – it’s a statement that everybody knows but many don’t understand. Why should it be so? Studying should be so important? Isn’t it the doing that counts?
Change My Mind
The answer is that learning Torah is the biggest doing there is. It’s considered one of the most important mitzvos because it changes you. Now, the truth is that any mitzvah changes you. וַעֲשִׂיתֶם אֶת כָּל מִצְוֹתָי וִהְיִיתֶם קְדֹשִׁים – You do mitzvos and you become holy (Bamidbar 15:40). Every mitzvah makes you kodosh but the mitzvah of talmud Torah makes you a new mind. And when your mind is changed into a Torah mind that’s the greatest kedusha, the greatest perfection of all.
When you put into your mind the machshavos of the Borei Olam, that’s the most tremendous change you can make in yourself. And that’s what talmud Torah is; it’s kineged kulam because you’re changing your mind into a mind that thinks like Hakadosh Baruch Hu.
When you’re learning Yevamos or Gittin, you’re thinking the thoughts of Hakadosh Baruch Hu. When you’re learning Bava Kamma, arba avos nezikin, you’re thinking the thoughts of Hakadosh Baruch Hu. Hakadosh Baruch Hu is thinking how important it is that every Jew should avoid damaging somebody else’s property. And so when you walk into the synagogue you’re thinking about how you have to be careful. You want to open the window? Don’t push against the windowpane; you might break the pane. You’ll be a mazik and you have to pay for it. Hakadosh Baruch Hu doesn’t want you to be a mazik.
So you’re thinking that Torah thought as you open the window; that idea not to be a mazik to your fellow man’s property! How big an ideal that is! You’re thinking like Hakadosh Baruch Hu thinks.
The Greatness is in the Details
But not just in a general way like that. You know, if you never learn Torah, you can’t appreciate what great emphasis is put on clarifying the smallest details but once you learn Torah, you’ll see that it’s so. When you learn Gemara and mefarshim you’re amazed at how tiny details are magnified; on how much time is spent on the svaros and understanding of the most minute technicalities.
Of course the leitzim, the amei haaretz, they say “Oh, it’s legalism.” They belittle the details that talmidei chachamim are busy with; they look down on it. “What difference does it make?” they say. “It’s a small thing. It’s just splitting hairs.”
But what to a layman, to a boor, an ignoramus seems like just a hair is to great scientists a big factory. “What do you mean, ‘just’ splitting hairs?! Splitting a hair means to us discovering great secrets of wisdom.” It’s the medulla and the cortex and the cuticle. And the layers: Huxley’s layer and Henle’s layer and the Hyaline layer. And that’s the superficial understanding of it. A cell is less than a hair and they’re trying to split cells today. They’re splitting not only the cell; they’re splitting fractions of cells.
But the business of splitting cells is nothing compared to the splitting of hairs in Torah study. The more you learn, the more details you study, the more you’re thinking in details of Hashem’s thoughts. Even the most abstract details, the finest minutiae, are details of His thoughts. And because Hakadosh Baruch Hu is so great, everything that He thinks is of infinite importance; the smallest detail is never small because it’s Hashem’s Mind. Don’t look at the smallness of the detail – look at the greatness of the One Whose thought it is!
And that’s the mitzvah of Anochi Hashem Elokecha: “Think along with Me,” Hashem says. “That’s how you’ll know Me best, by filling your mind with the thoughts of My Mind.”
Part II. His Thoughts, My Thoughts
Ideology of the Creator
Of course it’s not only details, the lomdus of Gemara. It’s kol haTorah kulah, all of the Torah ideology that we’re expected to think along with. You want to know what He’s thinking about, what He wants us to be thinking about? So open the Chumash. בְּרֵאשִׁית בָּרָא אֱלֹקִים אֵת הַשָּׁמַיִם וְאֵת הָאָרֶץ – In the beginning, there was nothing at all and Hashem created the world, ex nihilo, from nothing at all (Bereishis 1:1). That’s the first thing He wants us to think.
It means that we have to acquire that attitude that whatever you see in the world, it’s devar Hashem, the word of Hashem. You look up into the heavens, it’s לְעוֹלָם ה’ דְּבָרְךָ נִצָּב בַּשָּׁמָיִם – Your word is standing in the sky (Tehillim 119:89). You look down at the ground, it’s the word of Hashem. You look everywhere in between and it’s כִּי הוּא אָמַר וַיֶּהִי – He is commanding the world every minute to continue to be. Every rega, Hashem is mehaveh es kol habriah; every second He continues yesh me’ayin and if He would stop commanding, the whole world would disappear into nothing. The entire world is nothing but the word of Hashem! If you look at the world like that, that’s called thinking His thoughts.
It’s More Than Facts
That’s why Hakadosh Baruch Hu put this in the Torah. Bereishis bara Elokim! It’s not just a fact, a story, a piece of information. It’s a peek, kiv’yachol, into the Mind of Hakadosh Baruch Hu. “That’s what I’m thinking,” He says. “That there’s no reality except for My Will. And אָנֹכִי ה’ אֱלֹקֶיךָ means I want that to be your way of looking at the world too.”
Now, I mention that example, that thought, because it’s the first one. But it’s endless the thoughts we have to put into our minds. It’s a big job and that’s why you shouldn’t put it off. Hurry up and get busy! Hurry up and get busy changing your mind.
Don’t misunderstand me however. It’s work, but it’s well worth it. You know, once you learn to think along with Hashem so you begin to enjoy life to its fullest. Because you’ll look at the beginning of the Torah and you’ll see that Hakadosh Baruch Hu made the following statement: וַיַּרְא אֱלֹקִים אֶת כָּל אֲשֶׁר עָשָׂה – Hashem saw all that He had made, וְהִנֵּה טוֹב מְאֹד – and behold it is very good. Hashem said that: “Everything is very good!”
What’s Very Good?
I explained once that when you write a composition in school let’s say, would you write on the bottom, “I think this composition is very good”? So why did Hakadosh Baruch Hu write in the Torah that the world is tov me’od? The answer is, He wants us to know. He wants us to know what He’s thinking so that we should think along with Him – “Everything is very good!”
What is He talking about there? Olam Haba? No! It’s talking about like it says in the Chumash: וַיַּעַשׂ אֱלֹקִים, תַּדְשֵׁא הָאָרֶץ, תּוֹצִיא הָאָרֶץ, all of creation. Plants, animals, fish, birds. It’s all tov me’od. Not tov. Not just good. It’s very good.
Go outside today and look up. It’s cloudy. Clouds! Ahh! Tov me’od! Those clouds are full of all good things. There are strawberries and cherries and pears and peaches and pineapples and bread, wheat and oats and rye; all good things are in those clouds.
The trees are very good and birds are very good. The squirrels and the wind and the birds and people and the sun and the cement, they’re all tov me’od! As big as the world is, that’s how much good there is. And so you’ll never be sorry if you learn to think along with Hashem. Because you’ll be a happy man always – everything you see is good.
Self-Confidence
You’ll think that you’re very good too! Even better than the rest of creation. You know, if you think along with Hashem, you’ll never come here and ask me questions about self-esteem. Because you’ll look into the Torah and you’ll recognize your greatness: וַיִּפַּח בְּאַפָּיו – Hakadosh Baruch Hu breathed into man the spirit of life (Bereishis 2:7).
What does it mean ‘Hakadosh Baruch Hu breathed into mankind’? When He created animals, there’s no such expression. It says He made animals. It said He made trees. But why when it comes to man, it says that He breathed into them?
And the answer is, מַאן דְנָפַח מִדִּלֵיהּ נָפַח – when you breathe into somebody, you breathe from yourself. So when Hakadosh Baruch Hu breathed the neshama into man, He breathed something of Himself.
A Piece of Infinity
Now exactly what that means you’ll have to ask bigger people than me but there’s no question that it means it k’pshuto too: Hashem blew from Himself. And the old seforim tell us that when you take infinity and you try to cut up infinity in slices, each slice is going to be infinite because otherwise when you add up finite things, it won’t be infinite. So when Hakadosh Baruch Hu breathed מִדִּלֵיהּ, a chelek of Himself, into mankind, it means He gave mankind endless greatness. Just like Hakadosh Baruch Hu is infinite, so the greatness in the soul of every man is infinite. The greatness of man is beyond our ability to measure!
Now this seems like a rhetoric form of speech, but we have to study Torah and that is exactly what the Torah is saying: that mankind possesses within himself an endless measure of greatness because its source is the endless greatness!
Now, why is that written in the Torah? So that we should know about it and think that way. That’s how to look at mankind, like a skyscraper of potential greatness – like Hashem looks at them.
Bnei Torah Must Learn
Now, I can say with confidence that even many bnei Torah – ordinary people I’m not saying because about them there’s no question, but even many bnei Torah – have not made that Torah thought part of their own mindset. We learned it when we were little children and we retain a juvenile understanding of that all our lives. Does it become part of your mindset? No.
But Anochi means that it must become a way of thinking. We have to take it out of the cellar of our heads from time to time as we grow older and review it. Not just as a fleeting thought; to spend time on it until it becomes part of your mindset.
Now, if that’s the greatness of man in general – of every Puerto Rican or Italian – so what is a Jew? He’s a skyscraper on top of a skyscraper. How do we look at our fellow Jews? With the thoughts of Hakadosh Baruch Hu. כֹּה אָמַר ה’ בְּנִי בְכֹרִי יִשְׂרָאֵל — the Jewish nation is My bechor, My firstborn, says Hashem (Shemos 4:22). The word bechor ב.כ.ר is related to the word ב.ח.ר. which means a chosen one; bechor means the chosen first one. ‘You are My chosen first nation in the world’.
That’s a thunderous declaration from the Mind of Hashem. And it means that it should be thundering in our minds from that time on. I’m not saying you have to yell it from the rooftops; the nations of course don’t like that kind of thunder. But what can we do? In our own minds at least it has to reverberate without end. We are obligated to think along the lines of thought that He revealed to us.
Acquiring a New Mind
Accepting the Torah doesn’t mean merely signing on to keep the laws of the Torah, signing on to be a doer; it means accepting a new way of thinking, acquiring a new mind. At Har Sinai the Bnei Yisroel accepted that they will stop using their minds and think only what Hashem wants them to think. Torah means giving away your mind and substituting for it the Mind of Hakadosh Baruch Hu.
Of course, the intelligentsia will come out with the protest: “What’s he saying?! We should stop using our minds?!”
Absolutely not! We want you to use your mind; but only to think true thoughts. Because, let’s say you want to be open-minded. So whatever you hear comes into your mind. And what is the result? All kinds of sewage collects in your mind. All kinds of garbage are now filling up your mind; it’s a garbage disposal, that’s all.
But if your mind is closed, and it’s open only to the subject of Hashem’s thoughts, that’s the most open mind you could have. It’s like in a bank you have the bank vault, the safe. It’s a closed place. There’s nothing in there except for gold and silver; and stacks of greenbacks. That’s all that you’ll find there and therefore it’s the most valuable place. You want an open place?! Walk out of the bank, stop at the curb, and look down into the sewer. That’s an open place. Everything runs into the sewer. Which is more important? Which is more valuable?
False Independence
And I have to tell you something: don’t imagine that you’re an independent thinker. Ach! You have to know that in case we don’t think along Torah lines, don’t think that we’re thinking along independent lines. You’re never independent. Either you’re thinking Torah thoughts, Torah attitudes, or you’re thinking the attitude of New York City, of Hollywood, of the street. The mind is not a vacuum. It’s one or the other.
And so anybody who will say, “How can I give up my own independent mind and accept the Torah way of thinking?” is really saying, “I prefer to hold on to what the New York Post is telling me.” And if that’s the choice, it shouldn’t be so difficult.
The Unreliable Conscience
“Oh,” he says, “but I have my conscience that I listen to.” That’s what this humanist – I don’t want to say his name here – wrote in the New York Times; a long letter. “I don’t need Torah”, he says, “I follow my conscience. My conscience is enough to guide me to do what’s right.”
So you ask him, “What conscience was guiding Hitler? If you think that all you need is a conscience so Hitler when he killed six million innocent people he was following his conscience too. And all the bums who rape and who murder? The mothers who kill their unborn children? They’re following their conscience too. So is your conscience any guide for you?”
And so forget about that. If you think you’re following your conscience you’re fooling yourself. You’re following the ideas of some nincompoop who wrote a book or who writes in the newspaper. And so you’re thinking along with the street and you’re imagining it’s a conscience.
The Not Difficult Choice
The only way to think is the Torah way. Otherwise, it’s a sewer, not a head. There’s no וְהִנֵּה טוֹב מְאֹד in your head if you’re not thinking along with Hashem. It’s impossible! You’ll be a complainer, a nag – it’s too cold and too hot and too rainy. This is no good and that’s no good. There’s no בְּרֵאשִׁית בָּרָא אֱלֹקִים. You’ll mouth the words maybe, some lip service, but there’s no devar Hashem wherever you look. All it is is clouds and sun and trees and people, that’s all; it’s all gashmiyus. וַיִּפַּח בְּאַפָּיו? You don’t think so at all! It doesn’t cross your mind even. בְּנִי בְּכוֹרִי יִשְׂרָאֵל? To actually think like that when you see another Jew? Ah nechtigeh tug. Never.
All the thoughts of Hashem are crowded out by the thoughts of the street. Either you have in your head Mayor Lindsay and City College and evolution; either you have a television-head or a Torah-head; it’s either or. Either you’ll think like Me, says Hashem or your head becomes a sewer. It’s not a difficult choice.
Part III. His Torah, My Torah
A Torah Head
Now, the more a person practices up thinking according to the Torah patterns, the more of a Torah mind he develops. Not only he’s thinking Torah thoughts but they actually become his own thoughts.
That’s what it describes in the beginning of Tehillim (1:2). It’s praising the man who בְּתוֹרַת הַשֵּׁם חֶפְצוֹ – his desire is the Toras Hashem. That’s what he’s interested in knowing, the thoughts of Hashem. And then it goes on and says, וּבְתוֹרָתוֹ יֶהְגֶּה יוֹמָם וָלָיְלָה – and in his Torah he ponders by day and by night. First it’s called תוֹרַת הַשֵּׁם, Hashem’s Torah, and subsequently it’s called תוֹרָתוֹ – his own Torah.
So the Gemara (Avodah Zarah 19a) says like this: When you learn Torah, so at first it’s the Toras Hashem, it’s Hashem’s business. When you hear what the possuk says or what the Gemara says, alright, the Gemara is saying it. Of course, you’re a frum Jew so you’ll study the words, absolutely. You’re willing to do Hashem the favor and think along with Him. But still it’s the Toras Hashem – only that you’re good enough to keep His Torah.
But then what happens? After a while it begins to become Toraso, your own Torah; it actually becomes the way that you feel. The more you think about Torah ideals and Torah attitudes, the more they become your own ideals and attitudes. You become so imbued, so saturated with Hashem’s thoughts that they become your own thoughts.
It’s Our Will
You look around and you don’t see clouds and trees anymore – all you see is the devar Hashem. And not only that but it’s tov me’od – you feel that the world is actually very good! Every person is actually of infinite potential and every Jew is actually Hashem’s chosen child. All the Torah attitudes become your attitudes too.
That’s the real עֲשֵׂה רְצוֹנוֹ כִּרְצוֹנֶךָ – Make your mind like the Mind of Hashem. To think along until Hashem’s will actually becomes your will. And not only in the intellect; it’s bigger than that – what Hashem wants, that’s what you actually want! What He likes you like. And what He dislikes you don’t like.
Dovid Hamelech was describing a certain great man. נִבְזֶה בְּעֵינָיו נִמְאָס – What’s scorned is disgusting in his eyes, וְאֶת יִרְאֵי ה’ יְכַבֵּד – and he honors those who fear Hashem (Tehillim 15:4).
Now I’ll explain that. ‘What’s scorned’ means whatever Hashem scorns – He tells us in the Torah, “I scorn this. I don’t like it,” – so this person has learned to think in the ways of Hashem and he trained himself to also despise it.
Scorning Seafood
Let’s say treifeh food; seafood. So when a person begins to understand kashrus in the sense that Hakadosh Baruch Hu portrays it in the Torah – that the Jewish body is a sanctuary – he begins to feel that it’s a profaning, a sacrilege, to allow something into his mouth that’s not kosher. Besides for the sin, the Gehenom of the Next World, when a man realizes the great principle that he is a sanctuary, it becomes much more clear to him. שֶׁקֶץ הוּא לָכֶם – It should be disgusting to you (Vayikra 11:12,20,23). It’s nauseating. It’s out of the question to introduce a dead sheretz into a holy body.
Now those who didn’t learn Torah so they pass by a seafood store and see snails in the window: “Well, we don’t eat snails. We Jews don’t eat that.” That’s all. But he has no objection to snails. Sometimes he’s a lamdan: “It says in the Gemara (Rashi Vayikra 20:26) that you should say, ‘I like to eat snails only I’m refraining because of the Torah.’” But he’s not understanding correctly. He should say, “I would like to eat snails but I learned from the Chumash that snails are disgusting.” That’s how you think along with Hashem.
Scorning Romance
And so any kind of relationship between men and women which is not kosher al pi Torah is disgusting. Hashem hates immorality, and Anochi Hashem Elokecha means that we too hate immorality.
The nations of the world glory in immorality; they make it an ideal. The literature of the nations is nothing but men and women, love and romance; even illicit. Everything that the nations are doing is because they’re following their own ideas and they’re not limited to any set of ideals. They pay lip service. Yes, they have certain ideals that they claim to follow but they don’t. But the Am Yisroel, when we accepted the Torah we became a holy nation because we mortgaged our minds to Hashem. From now on what Hakadosh Baruch Hu says is pure and good, that’s what we accept. What He says is tamei is tamei. And immorality טֻמְאָה כְּתוּבָה בֵּהּ כַּעֲרָיוֹת – immorality is considered like filth, uncleanliness (Yevamos 11a).
Now to an am ha’aretz it might not be so; he tries to keep away from it because it’s forbidden but actually, to him it can be quite romantic. But to a Jew who learned, there’s no romance in whatever is not kosher. To the Jew who thinks along with Hashem, it actually smells bad.
Rabbi Akiva’s Sense of Smell
I’ll tell you a story from the Chachomim (Avos D’Rabi Nosson 16:2) about that. Rabbi Akiva was traveling and he visited a certain monarch, a king. Rabbi Akiva was an important personality so the king put him up in a special place and two women came into his place of lodging. Rabbi Akiva took a look at them and began spitting. He was retching. He couldn’t hold his food down when he looked at them.
So they came to the king and said, “What kind of man is that?”
The next morning the king asked Rabbi Akiva, “What happened? What went wrong?”
“What could I do?” Rabbi Akiva said. “Their smell came to me like dead rats. They smelled like dead rats.”
Imagine a dead rat lying in the July sun for a week on the sidewalk. You have to make a big detour around such a thing. Rabbi Akiva trained himself all his life, what’s not according to the Torah smells bad. Whenever he passed a dead rat he practiced that; he was thinking, “That’s that! That’s that!” So he trained himself and, therefore, he learned the attitudes of the Torah. That’s called נִבְזֶה בְּעֵינָיו נִמְאָס – What Hashem scorns is disgusting in his eyes.
Loving the Beloved
And the possuk concludes, וְאֶת יִרְאֵי ה’ יְכַבֵּד – He honors those who fear Hashem. Our Sages say it’s talking about Yehoshafat Melech Yehuda; he trained himself that way. Here is Yehoshafat, a king sitting on his throne. He sees a talmid chochom and he gets up from his throne and he walks over and he embraces him and he kisses him.
Yehoshafat Hamelech?! But he’s a king; and this is a plain man, this talmid chochom? The answer is he’s only a plain man to someone with an empty head, a head that is empty of Torah attitudes. But if Hashem’s will is your will so you love this plain talmid chochom. ה’ אוֹהֵב צַדִּיקִים – Hashem loves tzaddikim. Even though they don’t confer any benefit upon Him, He loves them; כִּי צַדִּיק ה’ צְדָקוֹת אָהֵב – Because Hashem is a tzaddik, He loves righteousness. For itself; no other reason. Hashem loves people who learn His Torah so Yehoshafat loved this man too. He loved him because he learned to adopt the attitudes of Hakadosh Baruch Hu.
That’s why Abaye one time said, “תֵּיתִי לִי – If any reward would ever be owing to me, it’s because when I see a tzurba m’rabanan, a ben Torah, who completed a mesichta, it is my custom to make a repast, a seudah, in honor of that achievement” (Shabbos 118b).
Now, it’s not that he himself finished the mesichta – he’s happy that somebody else completed a mesichta. Of course, if you’re the one who finished the mesichta you have more reason to rejoice. But suppose someone else who has no connection with you achieves something in Torah – it’s not your own achievement – but you are so happy that you spend your own money and you furnish a seudah to celebrate it! The mere fact that you saw some virtuous act makes you so happy, just like Hakadosh Baruch Hu is happy; that is already an emulation of the way Hashem thinks.
Loving the Tzaddik Nistar
And so suppose you see a tzaddik walking across the street. He’s not a tzaddik who’s a Rosh Yeshiva. He’s not a tzaddik, a chassidishe Rebbe, who has many followers; just a nice, fine, private Jew. But you know he’s a good Jew, a tzaddik. So you generate in your heart a certain admiration of him. You’re thinking, ‘“Hashem considers this man a very fine man, and so I do too.”
Or you see a woman pushing a baby carriage. Inside, there are two babies and four more are holding on to the side. So instead of just passing by like a golem, you admire that sight. She’s raising a future family of bnei Torah, of ovdei Hashem. You admire that. You consider her a princess.
Now she is dressed very plainly. There’s nothing to admire in the way that gentiles would look at that scene. She’s busy and she’s worried. Raising a family means many responsibilities and so her mind is occupied; she’s harried maybe. Nevertheless, we don’t look at the chitzoniyus. The exterior means nothing to you. Because you see what’s being done here! Hakadosh Baruch Hu desires a nation that is multiplying itself. That’s the great wish of Hashem to the Jewish nation. And, therefore, anyone who is succeeding in this tremendous endeavor should arouse admiration within you.
The Besamim Boys
Now the Gemara tells us that עֲתִידִים בַּחוּרֵי יִשְׂרָאֵל שֶׁלֹּא טָעֲמוּ טַעַם חֵטְא שֶׁיִּתְּנוּ רֵיחַ טוֹב כַּלְּבָנוֹן – The time will come when Jewish young men, yeshiva men, who never tasted of sin, kosher, frum yeshiva men, they will give forth a fragrance like a Lebanon cedar forest (Brachos 43b).
You ever smell a cedar forest from a distance? It’s a pleasure. Ahhhh! You breathe deeply as the wind brings the aroma of the cedar to you.
So when you see a group of yeshiva men across the street going to the yeshiva, you’re thinking: “Ahhh, it smells beautiful.” Now they don’t use any perfume. Bums yes. Bums smell good. They have perfume, after-shave lotion. They douse their underwear with perfume but as they pass by they smell to you like skunks. You have to hold your nose when they pass by. That’s how you have to learn. נִבְזֶה – What is scorned by Hashem, בְּעֵינָיו נִמְאָס – is disgusting to you. You can’t stand it! The stench of sinners is what Hakadosh Baruch Hu wants us to feel.
Accepting the Torah Mind
Now some people who are not acclimated to these things won’t find it easy to think along these lines. But that’s what Kabolas HaTorah means – a Jew is obligated to feel that Hakadosh Baruch Hu has given him everything including his mind and therefore he joyously accepts the mind of the Torah in place of his own mind.
And therefore, it’s our duty as mekablei haTorah to put the Torah into our heads and think along Torah lines. That’s the most important function of the Torah, to teach us how to think along with Him. That’s the Torah mind and it’s the greatest and most important service of Hakadosh Baruch Hu.
Have A Wonderful Shabbos
This week’s booklet is based on tapes:
291 – Thinking By Torah | 809 – Thinking Along With Me | 1000 – Thinking Hashem’s Thoughts | E-3 – Purim: A World Upside Down
Let’s Get Practical
Thanking for Torah
The first of the Ten Commandments we received at Sinai seems to be but a statement: “I am Hashem, your G-d”. But actually it is a command that we emulate Him and see things the way He described for us in the Torah. Every morning this week before I say Birchas HaTorah I will bli neder spend 30 seconds planning out the emotion of gratitude that I should be feeling as I say the brachos: gratitude for the gift of the Torah which gives me the opportunity to align my thoughts with the highest thoughts available to mankind — the thoughts of the Creator of the world.
Cozying Up
Horki Cheder, Rosh Chodesh Elul
Mendel was so excited. Now that he was in sixth grade, his class would finally get to daven Mincha with the older boys in the cheder’s beis midrash. The beis midrash was originally the main Horki shul before the new building was built – the Horki Rebbe used to daven there every day! Countless stories were told about the mofsim that the Rebbe performed in this holy room.
Mendel and his classmates made their way to Mincha full of excitement. They slowly walked into the holy room filled with awe. They found their new seats and trembled when the chazan began korbanos.
“Ashrei yoshvei veisecha!!!” Mendel and his classmates screamed along with the older boys and the rebbeim. It was such an incredible feeling, davening in this place of kedusha. Mendel didn’t take his eyes from his siddur, scared to even look around for one second. During Shmoneh Esrei, it was so quiet you could have heard the hairs falling out of Tzadok HaTzadik’s beard, had he been there!
“That was the best Shmoneh Esrei of my life,” Mendel told his friend Heshy as they made their way to the schoolyard after davening ended. “I don’t remember ever having so much kavanah.”
“Me too,” agreed Heshy. “I could feel the kedusha of the holy beis midrash flowing through me – I bet my tefillos went straight to the kisei hakavod!”
Five months later
“Mendel,” said Heshy, as the boys made their way to mincha. “I’ve brought my new Flybar SuperDisk 5200 to cheder today!”
“You mean the frisbee that flashes as it spins and plays music as it flies?” whispered Mendel excitedly as they entered the beis midrash.
“Yeah, I already loaded the new Jimmy Newbrush album on it,” Heshy replied, opening his siddur. “Did you hear the new song, Lecha Noveia?”
“No, my sister was telling me about it, though – I can’t wait to hear it.”
There was a loud “clopp” on the bimah and the boys looked up to see their rebbe, Rabbi Tannenbaum, glaring at them. The boys quickly stopped talking and looked into their siddurim.
It was hard for Mendel to concentrate during davening, as he kept thinking about Heshy’s SuperDisk. And it didn’t help that during chazoras hashatz Heshy was moving his head in circles, pretending to be a frisbee. He couldn’t help but giggle, until he got another stern look from Rabbi Tannenbaum.
After davening, the sixth graders all rushed to be the first out of the beis midrash so they could have an extra fifteen seconds to play during recess.
“Wait, boys,” Rabbi Tannenbaum demanded.
Everyone froze at the sound of Rabbi Tannenbaum’s gruff order.
“Sit back down in your seats,” he said.
Everyone quickly returned to their seats in the beis midrash.
“What’s going on with you boys?” Rabbi Tannenbaum asked, his voice softer. “Do you remember the first time you walked into this beis midrash? You were shaking with excitement and wonder at the opportunity to enter such a holy room. And now? What happened? Boys are whispering during davening, making silly faces, giggling? What changed?”
Everyone sat sheepishly as Rabbi Tannenbaum continued.
“When Klal Yisroel received the Torah, Moshe Rabbeinu warned them not to get too close to Har Sinai, because getting too close to a place of such kedusha was punishable by death. That’s important to remember, because a beis midrash is also a place of kedusha. It’s not on the same level as Har Sinai, where we couldn’t come physically close to it, but at the same time we cannot act in a beis midrash the way we would act during recess in the schoolyard.
“Now I know that you boys are aware of this, because on Rosh Chodesh Elul, you showed the proper fear of the kedushas beis midrash. Nobody talked, everyone davened, nobody even looked outside of their siddur. So what happened?”
The boys looked at each other. This was a good question. What did happen? Why didn’t they feel the same way as they did back in Elul?
“I’ll tell you what happened,” Rabbi Tannenbaum said, as if reading their minds. “You got used to it. You come here every day, and soon you became so familiar with the beis midrash that you lost the feeling of fear and respect of a makom kadosh.
“This is a very important lesson that you’re hearing right now. Often the first time we do something special, it means a lot to us and we properly respect it. The trick is to never stop thinking about that. To always remember the kedusha of Hashem and to act properly when we walk into a shul or beis midrash as if it were our first time.”
Have A Wonderful Shabbos!
Takeaway: It’s not good to “cozy up” to kedusha – we get so used to it that it doesn’t affect us. That’s why Hashem told us to be careful and not get too close to Har Sinai.
Let’s Review: What was the difference between the first time the kids davened in the beis midrash and the way they davened months later? What trick did Rabbi Tannenbaum teach them?