Rav Avigdor Miller on Easy Teshuva and Not So Easy Teshuva

In some seforim they make it sound like doing תשובה is not so hard. It’s a process, but it’s not so hard. But in other seforim it says that it’s a big עבודה of changing who you are completely. What’s the truth?

In order to explain that, we have to ask: What does teshuva mean? What are you returning to? There are two kinds of teshuva. In order to repent for your sins, there are certain things that you must do, minimal requirements that you must be aware of, and then you have fulfilled the mitzvah of doing teshuva for that sin. You have to have חרטה, regret for your sins. Then you have to resolve that you won’t return to those sins. You have to have קבלה על העתיד that you will forsake your evil ways. And you also have to ask Hashem for מחילה, and you have to say וידוי. Now, these are not very simple matters, but when you do these things properly you have fulfilled the basic requirements of of teshuva.

But there is another teshuva, much more difficult. A much higher teshuva. And that is שובה ישראל עד השם אלקיך – Come all the way back to Hashem. Not just to “do teshuva” but to actually come back to Hashem. That is the real teshuva that Hashem wants from you. And that teshuva is endless. The pursuit of שלימות, of the perfection of trying to get close to הקדוש ברוך הוא, is a life long endeavor. Moshe Rabeinu tried all his life and although he succeeded enormously, nevertheless he didn’t fully succeed. Nobody can succeed completely. שובה ישראל עד השם. Come back to Hashem, which means not merely to stop doing aveiros. Hashem wants you to be perfect, as perfect as you can be. And that perfection means returning to Him, by keeping Him before you all the time. All day long. That’s teshuva.

All your life you must strive for more and more perfection. And it’s a חיוב, an obligation! Hashem says to us ומי יתן והיה לבבם זה ליראה אותי כל הימים – “If only their hearts would remain this way always, where they recognize My Presence before them” (D’varim 5:26). Hashem wants from us that same attitude that they had at מתן תורה, when they heard the voice of Hashem. It was tremendous! Everyone was overwhelmed by the דבר השם at Har Sinai. The voice of Hashem! And Hashem said, “I want it to always be that way!” How could it always be that way?! That’s a very difficult עבודה, a teshuva that involves coming back to Hashem.

So real teshuva, the תשובה שלימה, is a very real undertaking because there’s a lot of work to do to achieve that attitude of feeling the presence of Hashem always. But it’s an attitude that all of you can achieve. It just takes work. All our lives we have to strive to do the best we can, by constantly seeking more and more שלימות, by coming back to Hashem as much as possible. The more you think about Hashem, the more you are coming back to Him in real teshuva.

TAPE # E-199